Last of the Summer Wine

I have been unemployed for 15 months now.  Being laid off when almost 8 months pregnant certainly was stressful.  Dealing with unemployment benefits through the confusion of being a new mom unsure of if we could afford for me to stay home after the benefits ran out was. . . confusing.  Then came October and the unemployment benefits did run dry.  Christmas was survived.  I did Sam's birthday party on a tight budget.  And now, at this very moment, I have less than $25 in my account.

I'm proud that I was able to stretch out my savings and make it last this long.  However, this household is in for some big adjustments now.  Morgan is now the lone income provider, bill payer, and budget daddy.  And now he's going to have to start providing for me in even more ways.  I'm no longer paying for half the groceries each month, my own gas in my own car, any bills, etc.

I'm sure most people will read this and think "So what!  You're married.  That's what you are supposed to do!"  But I have always been extremely independent and don't like doing things like sharing bank accounts.  Hell, even after I was laid off I was still paying half the mortgage for several months because I could and wanted to.  I don't like feeling like I'm not pulling my own weight.  Thankfully my car is paid off and I have no credit card/school loan debt.  That makes this change in status a little easier.

We are very lucky that Morgan has a good paying job.  I'm very lucky that he has agreed to let me be a stay at home mom.  And now, now he is my sugar daddy.  Long live the king.