Saturday, December 1, 2012

Who I Used To Be

My bestie posted this on Facebook.  This is a photo of us at the Renn Fest from 10 years ago.  It made me a little sad.  10 years ago I was 22, thin, and had not yet started dating my husband.  I was living in a craphole of an apartment by myself and living from paycheck to paycheck.  I was also incredibly happy.

Maybe because I have too much time on my hands, or perhaps because I spend most of my day with someone who I can't really have a conversation with, I've been thinking about the good ol' days a lot.  Wednesday night at the bar with my girls, playing pool while avoiding the can lights that made your shirt see through, and my ex-boys.  You know, that magical time in your life when sex was still fun.  

Don't get me wrong, I like my life now!  I've got this great kid, nice house, hilarious husband, etc.  But I do miss the old me.  Anything was possible.  I would go on road trips on a whim.  Driving a few hours to visit friends was nothing.  Other than my job, I had zero commitments.  I lived for the weekends and there was ALWAYS something happening EVERY weekend.  Perhaps most of all I miss that slender waist.  Damn, I miss being thin.  

But I apparently don't miss it enough to use that elliptical upstairs.  Yup, Queen Lazy.


  1. lol! When I found the picture my first thought was "Damn I looked good back then." I was fat, but not AS fat. And I really liked my hair like that, but have no desire to have to upkeep the color. haha And yes! It was sooo nice to feel like I had a life, even though I still have a life, it's just not a life that happens outside the home much anymore. I mean, we were dealt a horrible blow recently when one of our good friends didn't come to Potlatch and didn't invite us to her holiday party this weekend. We're pretty sure it's because she's tired of being around kids. Which makes us a sad.

    1. Yeah. I miss doing things all night and strange bar adventures. Trips to NC, StL, and PA. I miss those black pants that zipped up the side. And going to the movies whenever I wanted. Sigh.